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Monday, July 01, 2013
It is impossible for someone to have never once in their life done something for the benefit for oneself. As humans are born selfish, self-centered, and proud, they will always consider and think about themselves first.

Having known Don through the very Japanese live band I started, and leading to love and all personal issues seem like everything was meant to be. Now, being together with him may be the only thing that I will fight for. Even though it means that some people have to make some sacrifices.

Saying it in plain human language, people around us probably cannot understand what is going on here. To them, it will just be 2 married persons having an affair. And seriously, I am less than willing to make them understand. Since those who care will not judge, and those who judge simply don’t care.

But the thing that I will probably regret the most is the band. If it has to be disbanded just because of our relationship, I believe that there are so many people I will be letting down. But just like how Desmond placed it. If right now, someone were to ask him to choose between the band and his wife, he will definitely choose his wife. No question asked.

Similarly, even if the band were to disbanded, I would still choose to be with Don. Of course, I will be feeling sad, disappointed, sorry, guilty, depressed, and everything bad. For all the effort and time we put into it will be wasted. For all the anticipation and expectation will be let down. For all the trust will be broken.

But since this is a decision I’ve made, I will not regret it. Just like how I try not to regret marrying Ben and wasted all those time. Even if this path I’m walking now, does not lead to where I want to go, I have made the choice, and I shall walk down this chosen path.

=For the path which doesn’t lead you to your destination, probably brought you close.=

escorted to deatH at ; - 5:32 PM.