Sunday, March 14, 2010
It's been ages since I've last blogged,
not to mention it should be a lot more
ages since I last posted something here.
But somehow, this place is a necessity.
At worst times like this,
I should be glad that I
still have a place like this
to fall back into. But I really
think I'm wasting this peace away
because of my not-so-good feelings now.
I really feel that the same problem has
always been there and is repeating itself
every single day in this place.
No one care about it, no one voice out
about it, no one wish to acknowledge it.
But everyone feels it in them and knows
something is very wrong.
At least I am.
I've stopped talking about it to Ben,
due to various reasons. Since the same
thing happens everyday, and fucking irritates
me, I wouldnt wanna let him know
every single day that I fucking pissed off.
Eventually, I dont talk about it anymore,
and emotions got piling inside.
I guess he feels it too.
I guess everyone feels it for themselves too.
I've really started to wonder if it's me,
or something else, or someone else.
If that is the way she speaks,
and there's shouldn't be anything wrong with it,
so I'm the one who's in the wrong
for being so sensitive and hurt from those words?
Tomorrow is a new beginning,
for the better and best.
And I'm hoping that I can save enough
for night class fees.
Less time at home = Less conflicts.
I just wanna run.
